I am not having a good day..

I think now that the dust has settled it has really hit me.  I am having one of my not wanted to function days.  I am so upset my body is hurting today. I am trying so hard to hold back the tears.   SO much wish I could close my eyes and having it all back the way it was. I look to Chris for some comfort for some answerers but I am realizing he has already given me everything he can. His answer. He doesn't want to be with me. That everything we had was not worth it.  

I need someone to tell me to suck it up and stop being a cry baby.